Emo The Emotional Elf

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Good evening from Uk , how are you all doing? things are changing again here we are heading into a second wave of covid with local lock downs , new restrictions not being able to meet up again. If it wasn’t difficult the first time round we are certainly beginning to feel that slightly claustrophobic feeling intrude into our lives again. we will cope some better then others some hate it some revel in it and what it means. I have certainly found it has benefited us here in someways. It begins a closeness to those in your bubble, but also has brought more friendships our way. maybe from an online perspective but still people that I have become fond of. Our Jake has met a Really sweet Girl from the USA so sweet to see him blossom and his self esteem is growing. the start of something innocent and Beautiful. From Friendship to relationship. I hope this goes the same way our Niki and her Tom has gone they are 4 years down the line in their relationship now.

Although I talk to my Mum and our Josh daily I do miss visiting and having them come to stay, This week has been a busy one schools work and of course planning my anniversary I felt like a Million dollars on that day.

I am really affectionate person in general never say things I don’t mean, super soppy, and not afraid to admit it I am a woman who lavish attention on people I care about. Maybe slightly to intensely sometimes. The chances are I can be irritating.

Anniversary Wow 26 years

Some moments from our wedding day

How has he put up with all my faults and good bits this long, admittedly was touch and go for a short while but here we are still 26 years later.

I kind of wanted to really show him just how much I care , love and value him. what do you give someone who has things already, the one thing he always wanted the most valuing myself, knowing my own worth maybe that is the best gift to give someone. Putting my wants and needs first. that way what i give to him is someone without hangups and self consciousness or self doubt. definitely I was feeling free enough to not stress and put my creativity into the day. His smile was the best present I ever got.

When we were younger a couple of years married .

Preparations began the moment I saw the perfect dress I have been wanting one for years like this particular one.

Do you ever get that first strike of inspiration and then it develops into something perfect, It’s just the way I work, always comes from something that catches my eye then my heart it develops one time step at a time before you reach the end goal. Kind of a little how my book started. I wanted to get the meal prepared the night before and the scent of it cooking even had Jake come downstairs My hubbies Favorite Greek dish Pastitsio.

If you haven’t tried it yet look it up it really is a lovely meal and great with salad. Have my own little family recipe that is developed to our own taste.

Its one of them meals that you can serve the next day, as long as it is heated real well and kept in fridge. I think most families learn to do family recipes and send them down generations i find they always taste different depending who makes it all yummy but all adding their own flare to the dish.

I was meant to be working the day of my anniversary, the day before I just thought I really just want to be home, with him the kids were at school for the day, to be honest it is the first time we have been alone since the whole covid pandemic started. I don’t the first time in the long years I felt super nervous and had butterflies in my tummy. strange isn’t it after all this time he can affect me like that.

Told you I am super soppy.

With the kids off to school , I wouldn’t let him in the kitchen was busy doing my thing setting things up, I don’t need fancy restaurants, presents, big declarations of love. just a moment to just be me and just feel and take in the moment.

Not long after I surprised him god those balloons took ages to blow up. doesn’t the saying go actions speak louder then words. there is a lot of truth in that saying. He hadn’t see me all dressed up at this point.

I actually had to run to shops as didn’t have enough balloons to do the arch way, when we married we had a ballon arch way made at the entrance of the reception hall but by the time we got their all the kids had popped the balloons so we didn’t get to see it in all it’s glory. Maybe this year I wanted to recreate some of the things that were forgotten or when slightly amiss on our wedding day. The reason we got to reception on our wedding day slightly late was because we had to pop home so I could put on the necklace he brought me to wear with my dress and in the rush of the big day I forgot to put it on. walked down the isle without it.

Time went super quick wasn’t helped by the fact i had over an hour on the phone with citizens advice in three way call sorting Niki’s Uc claim god that was so frustrating that could take ages still we are waiting for her medical assessment, do you know this has been going on since she turned 20 in march. what a truly messed up system it is. still I wasn’t going top let it affect me and ruin what was meant to be a relaxing beautiful day.

Hair was next on the list of things, a small amount of make up and of course the necklace no way I was forgetting it this time, Nails. Then it was time to go get kids from school.

Dainty necklace I like things that compliment my shape

we did discuss letting the kids sit down for the meal with us but they saw the room all decorated and said they didn’t want to which kind of worked out well I fed them first, finished off setting things up before going to get dressed lighting the candles and calling hubby into the room.

I had our wedding first dance song playing still a favorite of ours. The lyrics are so beautiful. Gloria Estefan – I see your smile

First Dance as a married Couple

I scrub up well, very little effort, felt so glamorous.

This is the look i am talking about his smile.

The kids joined us for dessert pour Jake wanted to be any where but their think he wanted to talk to his girl not play gooseberry to mum and dads dinner date, lol.

I am not a drinker but this bubbly was so lush,

OH yes the elf came out too , my little creative buddy. The rest of the evening was movies.

What mischief Emo got up too.

but yes at the end of the day you take your hair down shoes off and sit with your feet up watching movies .

My hair went super fluffy.

Any way it was the perfect day that ended with smiles. and content feeling.

Goodnight have a beautiful evening and peaceful sleep.

Much love Faye xxx

Emo The Emotional Elf

Good Morning ♥️🔆

A brand new week, we rocked this morning school run😁👌

Back to work with Hayley today, we are getting her new sceduals sorted, doing some e-learning today she is a very Happy mood excited to be going on a walk tomorrow with day center staff.

Happy faces 😁

It turned out well as I have an important meeting tomorrow don’t have to split myself between her and other commitments . Not that that’s an issue but I can give the meeting my full attention.

Jake is slowly settling back into school routine Thier is a little getting used to new teaching methods and teachers. But it’s early days I always remind him to give his teachers a chance to understand Thier strengths and weakness it’s new for them too. It takes time to get an understanding going. We talk alit about others perspectives just because he is still learning about it and that it’s ok for people to have a different opinion and still be a good person.

The thing is my kids have always stuck by Thier opinions and very rarely change that opionion unless they research facts. I truly love that about them. We are learning to respect a difference of opinion it’s healthy to agree to disagree and move on.

I am finding writing becoming easier again, me and Hayley are listening to music while she does her learning today.

Any way have a beautiful new week ahead.

Much love Faye xx💓

Emo The Emotional Elf

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Feeling a little inspired tonight , got my laptop out the music quietly playing . a cup of coffee

Hi everyone hows your weekend been, I have to say I have had the most relaxed time this weekend, my head feels the clearest its been in a long time. For once I left my car parked up all weekend end and used my good old feet head phones on blasting my ears with all my favorite tunes while I walk. it really is amazing just how far you can walk when your mind is occupied with special tunes and the scenery. Their has been lots of things I have noticed over the last few days that just make me sit back and enjoy. One thing is waking up early and seeing this little cat come playing in my garden I can see it from my favorite spot in the kitchen while I have my first coffee of the day, it’s white,orange and black it finds things to play with it does these tiny little flips in the air, but is always alert for any noise or other cats that maybe around, it plays there dor a good 10 minutes. I love seeing the vegetables grow each day the colour changes as they ripen and get ready for picking, the sun shining through the windows as it rises.

The sound of the clock ticking it’s surprisingly loud when everyone else is still asleep , I love them moments when you think about plans for the day.

You know I share a lot periodically through the day, it’s kind of like I have a list of things to do and when I share something I can move on to the next thing on my list , I always think I am going to forget details for when i do sit and blog it helps me with planning out what I am going to write, its how I began writing Emo a bit like a running diary only it was an Elf diary I do find this style of writing best suits my personality.

Although I do plan a head and I am always prepared I am equally spontaneous and moment to moment.

My walk today wasn’t very long and just a leg stretcher after dinner but it happened at the right time as Dylan who was going to meet with friends just for a small birthday treat, had to change plans when they couldn’t get together so asked if he could come watch movies with Niki, as we are all in the same bubble it was cool and great for both of them to spend time together as cousins. I got some gifts and a cake from shop on my walk.

The one thing I love about going to the local shops is the community this little group always sitting outside the shops every day, they always call out Hello smiler at me and i always respond with a wave and a hello.

Hello is a powerful word sometimes it can make someones day, a lot of the time people avoid the group or walk anxiously passed them like they don’t exists but I see how important they are too each other and that little bit of socialization might be the only thing that gets them up that day, some have disabilities some like a beer but they are humans though life can be super tough for people not everyone has a great family like mine, not everyone has a support network, that people would see as a good influence but I see it like they the only family they have even if they are not related. I have a huge interest in people, and life, and what makes a quality life for each individual.

I got a New Face mask this weekend . I really love it, it’s smiley and has red lipstick my favorite colour. so it is like my stamp without people seeing my actual smile.

Sunday’s I love to potter about listen to music get things ready for the week ahead, sometimes I cook sometimes hubby does today I took over everything so he could rest I have rested a little to much for my liking besides i find being busy sometimes super relaxing. I talked to my Mum and some friends , sang into the mop while I cleaned. popped a roast in oven. made BLT’s for lunch, their is something so fulfilling when you use produce you freshly pick. Sitting having dinner together was fun although i had to remind kids three things not to discuss at dinner table, Politics, Money and Religion. Not at my dinner table very passionate people very passionate views, I prefer to laugh while I eat not be referee.

We did also have Greens forgot the picture green beans and Chard.

I love it with a little olive oil and freshly squeezed lemon. Niki did try the Green beans but she is a vegetarian who doesn’t enjoy veg is their a word for that , who knows? I don’t!!

Dylan’s Short notice surprise Birthday

Good thing about me loving Birthday’s so much is endless supply of balloons, banners and candles, I got back and set things up ready only took about 20 minutes from being at the shops and getting home before Dylan arrived, I just got it done. I got Niki to take Dylan upstairs called hubby and Jake down ready to sing happy birthday they both lit the cake Wow 19 can’t believe it really seems only yesterday he turned 18 and I gave him his memory book his was one of the first ones I made.

I think he liked the surprise.

Their it is that smile on Jakes face, he tried so hard not to smile we had to go through a few pics before he was happy with one I could use, my phone is filled with many photo’s they won’t let me use because they don’t like the angle or the lighting, I am used to accepting that is part of them but I like to catch people when they are most natural and like themselves, I can never get bored capturing my kids I want to soak up every moment sometimes just because I love them so much. I Guess I am a little greedy about it sometimes kids they grow so quick one minute they are opening their eyes for the first time, the first time their tiny hand wraps around your finger, fist teeth , first steps that very first Christmas and birthday. I always loved all of them moments through out their lives First day of school, then Secondary school, college and uni, first house and job. Time fly’s so quickly.

This year is all a mess really gone so quick and slow at the same time, lots achieved and so little , quality time with some and not getting quality time with other’s it makes you yearn and what it back how it was it makes you value everything you have in your life, the freedom we had growing up, freedom of speech, free for lots of other things some people don ‘t have.

I am blessed with family , a roof over our head and food on our table, yes life is challenging for our family a lot of the time but if this is all I have for my life I am truly blessed and happy. they are my world.

Good night and have a peaceful sleep

Much love Faye xx

Emo The Emotional Elf

Good morning from uk , been giving my mind the weekend off, no study , no work , no writing. Had a rather refreshing long walk yesterday headphones on listening to music it’s a great way to find insperation for writing. Me myself and I, and just my own mind no interruptions or talking just taking in the views

Wishing you a very beautiful Sunday form all of us here. Enjoy, relax, find your smile.😁♥️