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2 year Blog Anniversary !!

I got a Word Press, notification today I seems like only yesterday I began to write this blog, my goodness I stuck at it.

It has had a huge impact on me and gave me a the ability to talk and write a freedom that is not me the mum or the wife but me the writer, the author. Thank you too all who have followed or read my posts, or clicked a link to read, I think your all pretty awesome people. First I find just sitting here in silence just typing so calming. Sometimes it relieves inner tension that doesn’t answer back like when you are having a conversation with someone. At the very point of writing it is only your own perspective you are sharing. What you see in others that they may not see in themselves. My blog, is very family orientated, but also about work and my journey to becoming an author, two years to additions of my book released one with a publisher hitting issue’s over coming them, starting again, you definitely need a don’t give up attitude in the world of publishing, you also need to stand up for your work and rights. It is like giving birth all over again you nurture your writing like you would your kids. you watch it develop through many stages. and it changes you for the better, that’s like being a mum they teach you so very much. both my kids and my books have given me many nights of worry but they are worth the world too me, I wonder if I would feel the same if it was a fiction book as I do about this book about my family and our journey. I guess time will tell as my new books develop maybe thier will be fiction books ahead on this new journey, but nothing makes me happier then talking about my family.

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I am happy with the results of my hubby’s work, I must admit when he was doing the cutting in of the the red I got the giggles when he dropped the red paint brush on the newly white fire place. I have a bad habit of laughing at the wrong time. he just shook his head and said don’t say any thing. i kind of kept distracting him with my clutsy cleaning got a bit over enthusiastic cleaning the window the hinge broke. he sorted that and then as I cleaned the carpets with that vanish shake on hover up stuff I made our Hoover die. It decided to blow all the dust out all over my clean front room which I spent four hours washing walls and cleaning cereal from under neath my sofa now the question is how and who put it thier , Niki or Jake or maybe both. The search of the crevices of the couch saw me raise about £5 in lose change. Basic cleaning and decorating brings its own challenges. I love my life a lot even the little irritating bits it keeps me on my toes. drives my hubby crazy sometimes his deep signs or ” for goodness sake Faye” rings in my ears even when I do things wrong when he is not here. He knows my most annoying habits mumbling under my breath as I walk out the room loud enough for him to here I am annoyed but not quite loud enough for him to here what I actually say, or the fact I am banging the cupboard doors as I lovingly prepare his dinner, even when I don’t want too . I can be a bit of a grumpy cow sometimes.

Wednesday was work day with Hayley, we had a lovely lunch when we we out, she even ate a banana she has long been eating fruit but she enjoys a banana twice a week. doctors said she shouldn’t eat too many. It is her Birthday Tomorrow 48 years old she will be,thier is just over three year between our ages with my oldest brother being 46 and I am 45 this year our younger brother is 43. Yes we are all entering the mid to late forty’s so much of life to still look forward too. So much yet to experience our kids marrying Becoming grandparents one day ( NOT YET THOUGH ) .

Hayley has been telling everyone it’s her birthday multiple times she is like this excited kid in an adults body. we are taking her to her favorite local Pub to listen to a band tomorrow.

My mum traveled down this morning and is with us till Tuesday, it is so lovely to have her here. we went to visit my aunt today who is having to move to a bungalow and out of our grandparents home that has been lived in by our families for over 60 years, It is sad the tenancy couldn’t be taken over by her but that is the rules can only change hands once. which it had to my uncle but when he recently sadly passed suddenly this was what we had to do. Thier have been so many generations of kids having happy fun times in this house, and it is with mixed feelings we say good by to the walls that held the memory of our family, but now another family get the fill it with love and laughter as it was when we grow up surrounded by family.

Jake got a 8b on his Geography test he was excited to share that news with us, again it goes to show with a little bit of adjustment and a quite place to do his tests, where he doesn’t feel anxious or overwhelmed by noise he can get the grades we always new he could. anxiety is such a difficult thing to live with it isn’t always rational it isn’t always understood but it is always thier,

Any way I could write so much more but I am going to sleep now nearly 1 am again.

Goodnight for now,

Much love Faye xx

Here is the link for the Ebook version of my book Emo the Emotional Elf

https://www.kobo.com/au/en/ebook/emo-the-emotional-elf

Here Is the link for little Holly’s work and the work of the other young writers

https://www.youngwriters.co.uk/publish/video-share.php?code=U431441800&fbclid=IwAR13lfKDY-t4LKnM0-sQa2k9fBLssVWkD8l2Zs5rYOprGXGwlPR_dXJztj8

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Has it really been nearly a week since my last update wow I am slacking , thier is so much to write about where to begin.

It has been a long productive week for us here, we have added more jobs to the mix by beginning to do a small redecorate and deep clean of the house we have been so busy with work thier is much to catch up on. I don’t think my hubby new what he let himself in for when I asked him to take the curtains down for me so I can give them a clean,. I suddenly went out and brought a can of paint and sugar soap.

Bless him he washed , repaired and steamed them.

Now don’t be too shocked he knows how to use an iron just mostly chooses not too, who can blame him I avoid it as much as I can as well , he is very Handy around the house always fixing things. He had to do a temporary fixed on our window I simply cleaned it and the bracket on the hinge broke. story of his life fixing things for me.

I thought he deserved a real good meal for his hard work so made a lovely beef and vegetables stew, so nice to make some of these more winter meals on cold wet days. Plus I caught up on all the ironing he had his wardrobe refilled for the first time in a while.

Our Jake

Jake his Migraine has been slowly leaving but this time was it was a pretty intense one for him, affecting his head, eyes and tummy, had almost 3 days off school the week before last, the first day back on Monday he got so tired he slept from when he got home we just managed to get him up to eat his dinner but that was a real difficulty.

I wasn’t best pleased to receive a red warning letter from the school over attendance. I just don’t think they will ever get how debilitating his migraines are. Double vision, dizziness, nausea Stomach pain ,he is ok sitting or laying in one position but not moving just a slight movement sets it off.

They have a letter from the doctors and it is all in his education plan, He might be doing better at school back in top sets, going to his lessons but this is something he lives with all the time he was eager not to miss much school and when he had moments of eased pain he did willing do his homework so he didnt get to far behind.

I don’t think I have a lot of patience with his school over this matter, I am happy with them passing any missed work over for him to do at home if he needs ro catch up but they never really communicate other then these truly annoying letters, that at the end of the day don’t and can’t change his hidden issues. I really wish I could have a magic wand and take his pain away but I can’t.

The colour in his cheeks still hasn’t fully returned yet, he goes white as a ghost .

Our beautiful Niki

Niki is working hard at college , and her placement, she is really enjoying it she gets assessed by the college running a little art thing for a small group of children on monday at her placement she is already planned and prpared everything she needs. and is doing it with such inthusiasum.

She has been suffering with her ears again they get completely blocked no matter how many times we clear them, one is completely clear now the other she has an appointment for the nurse to do in a couple of weeks the only appointment I could get she cant here out of it at all at the moment. I think because she suffers so much with it that’s why she has learnt to lip read and some sign language

She also had her appointment at the specialist for her pcos, the meds seem to be doing well she has to see them again in six months then they will check testosterone levels again,

if need be add another med she is already saying she doesn’t want to take anymore, we just decided to wait and see results next time before we decide anything. ultimately it is her body her choice. if it helps her then that is great if not then that is ok too.

Niki also heard it was her teachers birthday this week and wanted to make her feel special for the day she and some of her class mates decorated the room one made a birthday cake and Niki choose some presents for her teacher she wrapped and put it in a basket. She felt really great throwing her teacher a surprise for her birthday. she has come along way in communicating with teachers now.

Hayley

As you know we had to help her move from disability to pip she was worrying that her money would stop again, it was good news this time , they have put the mobility part up to high rate, that will definitely help a lot because of her bouts of falls over the last year, she has also had a lot of returning headaches which means are keeping an extra close watch over her incase it means her silent fits are happening again.

Hayley has grand mal seizures and petit mal, as well as absences where she just stares.

She wanted to celebrate with a treat as it was her treat day we found out and my on shift full day.

Her and Niki have got real close lately she wanted her to join in on her activity of choice this week, the arcade . Hayley loves to do repetitive things so you bet she hit the Jackpot not once but twice on the huge fidget spinner there.

She also did some of her winter clothes shopping, and got some arts and craft things to make for Halloween.

we always leave the arcade with the mini photo’s Hayley loves collecting her memories for her memory book

There is also something else which we are waiting to be fixed the path out side Hayley’s garden it has been broke and reported someone sprayed it with a cross ready to be done but that was weeks ago still a bit dangerous not only for Hayley but the neighbor too who is extremely fragile.

Hayley walks fast and has bad eyes even with her glasses I would hate to see her trip on that. the two unsteady people have this outside thier gates.

Emo the Emotional Elf book

We are slowly making small steps with this just waiting for some more feed back about it from people that have purchased it. The trailer is finished just a few tweeks with the subtitles then will be uploaded, I am all ready to go for the next author event on the 19th of October at our local library, my first payment for eBook should arrive in 90 days £2.91 out of the £5-95 for the ebook isn’t such a bad return one step closer. Reality of royalties . Think it is going to take a long time at that rate to get initial investment back but we will see Christmas isn’t long off and I might have good sales over that period a girl can dream. I wander sometimes what would of happened if the publishers we used before hadn’t gone bust. How many sales we would of made that year when it was new and fresh and relevant to where we were on the journey at that time. Then I shake myself don’t look back and wander what may have been go out and make what can and will be never give up.

The kids, Tom,Holly, Ellie and Hayley. Work night.

Was a great night we had fun and reading, and camping in the front room

The Elves Ever present , Thier was a Very special gift for mr from Holly a copy of a published book she has a short story in she was so excited when she learned her story was being published, she thinks we are author twins.

What a fantastic book full of young talented writers from 7 – 11 year olds

The imagination effort and hard work they and the schools and the editor Wendy Laws. I really enjoyed reading them and read them to Niki and Jake too really made them smile.

I must admit though I was quite captivated by them, they must be so proud of themselves i know what it’s like as an author to receive that first copy of the book imagine all those children’s whose work was added the excitement of showing off they newly published work.

great Job to all of them hope to read more from them in the future and they continue of with thier very creative writing.

You can check out this book and others written by young writers at the web address below, thier is defiantly some surprising work in there.

www.youngwriters.co.uk the book is on sale for £15.99

What incredible diary entries.

Good night much love Faye xx

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Hi all next event and book signing lots of authors and Thier books to choose from something for every type of reader

Wishing you a beautiful day today

Also we are celebrating Yai yai and Papou’s Golden wedding anniversary

A silver and golden anniversary in one week 😀😀😀💗💗

Much love Faye XX

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Hi all how are you this evening?

I am still so chilled from the special day I had, still can’t stop smiling. There is something about loving someone so completely, even when they sometimes drive you a bit nuts. That just makes you smile.

Working with Hayley yesterday was great ,still working on her weight control with her, but she loves Wednesday treat day, she follows me around till it gets to lunch time, because that’s her routine to do that especially at food time.

She collects photo’s for her book of memories.

We also brought her a new book it was an interactive mini mouse book first it’s her favorite character, but also she can see the picture and press the button that tells her the sentence, it isn’t just reading too her, she loves to look at books on her own so this was a great one for her.

Jake he was sent home from school yesterday with one of his migriane’s this one perticualy bad because it gave him dizziness, blurred vision, and sleepiness, just turning his head to the side was an agravating thing that set it off worse, he was also having some of his syncope and really fast palpertaions.

It started slowly at the beginning of the week but he managed school, but when he was sent home he so pale he slept for hours, the other thing when he gets these is he craves salt, or a very strange new craving of popcorn .

He has to have extra salt to help with his low blood pressure it normally helps a little this time not so much.

Still he is hoping to be better for school tomorrow. So fingers crossed.

His sleeping is very bad at moment aswell. Which probally is one of the culprits of the migraines.

I know how he feels as I have had them for most of my life. He just lives with them I guess they are as much a part of him at the moment as him being autistic things you can’t change but are just thier a part of you.he is managing his anxiety ok at the moment so no outside stressors.

We talk about migraines and Thier affect on your head eyes, but also the stomach migriane’s can be just as annoying for him too. A cross between feeling staving and cramping, and sick all at the same time I guess in is some what relieved but having the thing your body craves. Intermittent pain that comes and goes but lingers thier all the time.

We first noticed his tummy issues when he was 2 that’s is when he got a bug and his selective eating started, while he now can be ok with some cooking smells , and actually thinks something smell really good still this big reluctance too try , he keeps saying I want my taste buds gone everything tastes horrible even though he has never put most of the things even close to his mouth, so yes invisible illness is a big thing to talk about, he has good days where he is able to cope with alot of things by pretending or masking them, but they are still affecting him on a daily bases even though he is better able to just get through days at school .

Niki still doing good on her course and placement, still completing her work and Finishing it they are having to give her extension work , I think her love of this course is going to make her teachers have to come up with more extensions along the way.

Any way for once I am tired myself, going to chill and wait for them to finally fall asleep.

Good night

Much love Faye XX 😀❤️