Emo the Emotional Elf #author #emotions #family #anxiety #autism #memories #mentalhealth

Hi all how are you?

We have had a busy couple of days here, yesterday Jake had the cooking bug, wanting to make donuts and roast, was this the day he actually would eat what he cooked donuts yes !! chips yes!! chicken a big no thier and the salad well he ate green grapes , spinach and cress, see the theme there still yellow and green foods mostly. He is really beginning to understand on his own terms that his body is going to need to eat different things soon he want’s to be able to but still just cant try. It isn’t something will will give up hope on this changing one day. Really it has been a massive part of him for so long now his mindset around foods and trying them is slowly changing. this Is why I am glad he took up health and catering at school. Exposure to food scents and textures with his sense of smell and touch, we are still getting every now and then another food in thier, but this has been going on for over twelve years now with food for him, it has given him many invisible issues.

Here he is making them with supervision, and burn spray at the ready we only needed it once when he twitched and a bit of oil splashed on his thumb.

He researched the recipe himself picked a time 10 am to do it, washed his hands and got on with it. He made sure he followed the timings, for letting the dough sit.

He was very proud of them i got to say he did eat a couple but not as much as i did they were scrumptious, he gave a couple to his dad and Niki always looking for thier response, It makes him happy that they try his food.

An Empty plate

He had a small walk to shop with Niki , before coming back to prepare evening meal, he didn’t touch chicken i had to do that part for him but he made the chips, we picked some of the Salad’s we grew in the garden to go with it.

With a little help he did a great job.

Yesterday i also popped over to see my aunty , she had sorted a few childhood memories for us too have to remember our Nan and Grandad by also though I wanted to see how she was doing since my uncle passed, the brother and sister sharing my grandparents home after they passed, it is hard knowing the house has to go so many generations of our family and memories we shared together there.

Very happy memories for me, I think sometimes when you lose someone you are drawn back to that childlike look at the world , that one place you felt like yourself exceped for who you were ,nutures encouraged and loved unconditionally.

My memories of those days leave a warm feeling in my soul. when i got my first job after leaving school at sixteen was getting my first full time job in the Littlewood’s cafe where my Grandfather used to take us on a weekend. one of his favorite places to go after retiring. he used to sneak donuts and sausage rolls and say don’t tell your Nan she always knew as Hayley never could keep a secret.

Many times he treated us to a new out fit, my cousin had a red skirt and top and I had the same outfit in a pastle green. when I got my first wages in them days a months wages was £390. i would give my mum and dad £150 for my part of the bills and food, have money to get me through the month and I brought my Nan and Grandad a Bonzi tree made of fine China. it has sat in the same place in thier house now for about 24 years until yesterday now it has pride of place at my home, a connection between me and them, and the values they taught me. I am family orientated and very sentimental type of woman.

My pickles and Nanu were big home growers my grandad on the allotments and my Nan and her flowers. pickles gave us all nicknamed mine was Faye fatty boom boom maybe because I was a little chubby growing up it was kind of cute.

Then thier is a memory for Hayley, My Nan And Grandad had a big soft spot for her, she was thier special Grandchild because she is who she is. her memory was going on holiday to Lourdes and bring back Holy water

The little Brown container is a memory for Our Josh as well as a children’s book jungle book when my Nanu had cancer she was in her bed by the window in the dining room she would read it to him , it is one of the memories he has of her he was only about 2 -3 at the time of her passing. sometimes a long time after she passed he kept saying at random times he could smell her in different rooms , Like she was thier

The little pot is her favorite scent roses it still there even now.

I was feeling in a great play full mood last night, when I picked Niki up i found this new wall plaque in the garage it made me laugh i just had to wait for the right moment to put it to good use .

My Hubby is a bit of a joker , years of being a DJ always one to freely post the wife jokes, the thing is i was a sister before a wife I learnt to patiently wait till they least expect it and kind play them at thier own game. it could be the same day or even months later but jokes are best given when they cause are caught off gaurd.

See what I mean , the best moment Jake was trying so hard to be quite when he took the photo but he was laughing so much, humor is great for stress relief.

Today was MOT day to say i was hoping it would pass would be an understatement we don’t have that much luck on the car front, i dropped it off at the garage and rather then walking all the way home and back again I thought I would have a quick look around the shops while I wait for the hour. Maybe not such a good idea after all I impulse brought a new dress

I got to say it was worth it I love it , I love the Greek key design with that hint of Red my favorite colour. The good news is the car passed with no advisories so good for at least another year before i need to think about investing in a new one. I Spent the afternoon taking Niki and Jake for a walk round town.

I will leave you with another favorite memory of mine before saying good night.

Me and my oldest son Josh.

Good night all much love Faye xxx